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| The Morning After.... |
| 01.29.05 (1:10 pm) [edit] |
Last night was a little crazy......and I have a massive hangover right now! It is also HAILING outside....so thats weird because that doesn't happen in Arizona!! Anyways.....last night we got some Skyy, and Rob came over and I thought the 3 of us were just going to hang out and drink or whatever, but then Andy called and said Ross was having a party so we decided to go to that. By this point, Audrey and I were kind of drunk, and I was thinking oh wouldn't it be fun to wear fake eyelashes?? Well the glue had a clot in it or something so I was trying to squeeze it out but then it exploded and got all in my hair. SICK. So I had to wash my hair again and Audrey had to scrape it all out....I thought I was going to have to cut my hair off or something. It took us like an hour to decide what to wear and Rob was getting SO PISSED....we did some more shots then headed out. We were going to meet up with Andy and Ross at Andy's house, but there was a party across the street so Audrey and I wandered over there and started talking to random people then got beer cups......so we ended up staying there. Then the cops came, so we ran inside this house that belonged to these 2 really cool girls....and I did some Jager Bombs with them....yummm. So after the coast is clear, Audrey and I go back outside and start talking to these boys....this one guy, Rory, was from South Africa and had an accent and played rugby.....in my drunken state I thought he was cute but now that I am sober I really don't think he was. Plus he was shorter than me....EW....but we were hanging out and talking and we ended up making out.....he like choked me with his tongue....gross. Then he tried to get me to go back to his place, and I was like ummmm I don't do that, so he left.....I hope he doesn't call me. It was weird though because he lived in Dallas for a little bit and dated a girl I knew from Southlake.....random. So then Skye ended up coming over with Holly and we went over to Andy's house.....I LOVE HOLLY! We took a bunch of drunk pictures....it was fun. I left my Skyy somewhere, so I was sad I didn't have it, but it was for the best because I think if I would've kept drinking I would've gotten out of control drunk and passed out in the yard or something....I was already really wasted. I sobered up a little bit because for some reason I was outside talking to these boys and I smoked a bunch of cigarettes....you know i'm trashed when I want to smoke. Audrey was really wasted by this point, and she wanted to pass out in Drew's bed but I said we should go home, so she ran over to Andy's and tried to pass out on the sofa bed.....but we ended up getting her into Rob's car somehow. Rob took Skye home, then we went to Jack and got all this nasty ass food......he dropped us off and we passed out. When we woke up this morning we were both still drunk.....I love when that happens....hahaha....but I had the worst headache!! And the stupid fucking neighbors were bumping their stupid fucking music at 10 AM and it was keeping me awake and making my headache even worse.....I am going to kill them one day. So I just woke up, and its like monsooning outside.....I don't get it, it rained 3 TIMES TOTAL the whole entire year last year, and it has been raining so much lately. Yuck. This is not why I moved to AZ....I can get that at home, thanks! Well I think i'm going to go back to sleep.....check out my picturetrail thingy later, I'm going to put up the pics from last night when I wake back up.
....this is Audrey's song for me, even though its about a prostitute!!! hahahaha
[b]Jack Johnson[/b]
[i]Taylor[/i]
They say Taylor was a good girl
never one to be late
complain express ideas in her brain
Workin on the night shift
passin out the tickets
you're gonna have to pay her
if you want to park here.
Well mommy's little dancer's
quite a little secret
workin on the streets now
never gonna keep it.
It's quite an imposition
And now she's only wishin'
That she would have listened
To the words they said.
Poor Taylor.
Well she just wanders around
uneffected by
the winter winds, yeah
and she'll pretend that
well she's somewhere else
so far and clear
about 2,000 miles from here.
Peter Patrick pitter patters on the window
And Sunny's silhouette won't let him in
and poor old Pete's got nothin 'cause he's been fallin'
but somehow Sunny knows just where he's been
He thinks that singin' on a Sunday's gunna save his soul
but now that Saturday's gone
Well sometimes he thinks that he's on his way
but I can see, that his break lights are on
And he just wanders around
uneffected by
the winter winds, yeah
and he'll pretend that
well he's somewhere else
so far and clear
about 2,000 miles from here.
She's such a tough enchilada
filled up with nada
givin' what she got to give to get dollar bills
she used to be a limber chick
time's a been tickin'
now she's finger lickin to the man
with the money in his pockets
flyin in his rocket
only stoppin by on his way to a better world
if Taylor finds a better world
Taylor's gunna run away
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| slacker!! |
| 01.27.05 (8:57 pm) [edit] |
Audrey didn't have class today, so we decided to drink last night......we got really wasted and called Pajo because he loves us!! He also thinks we are insane. Which is cool. I want them to come visit SO BAD! Anyways....I tried to wake up for class today, I swear I did, but when I woke up at 9 I was still drunk and if I would've gone to school I would've gotten a DUI or Public Intoxication probably. So I went back to sleep. Not a great idea to miss your first quiz and lab due......but shit happens. Besides, your two lowest labs get dropped, and I had no idea what I was doing on this lab so I would've gotten a bad grade anyways. There is Taylor logic for you!! So when we woke up we went to In N Out... which is the best hangover food EVER. Umm random thought: The loser Good Charlotte guy needs to stop molesting Hilary Duff. Gross. Yeah.......so we came back from In N Out, and I went back to sleep....then we watched the OC!! My favorite time of the week!! I know all of you boys are disappointed that Alex and Marissa didn't get it on today, but watch out for next week.....I don't like girls and I'm not a lesbian but I would totally hook up with either of them. Especially since Alex looks like FORBIDDEN! Then we went to KFC and got some Mashed Potatoes....I'm not sure why. And now we are making more Jello Shots. We have class tomorrow, but not until 12, so lets hope we can make it. It is my favorite class though.....MCO! Its like Middle School so I love it. I think we might take a road trip up to Sedona on Saturday because I have a photo assignment and I don't want to have the same pics as everyone else, plus I've never been there and theres not really anything else to do during the day so if anyone wants to go.....I was talking to my lambchop last night and I miss her so much!!! Kylie too.....but I miss Kylie like every second of every day!!! :cry: Well I think the jello shots are done so later!
this song reminds me of my little LAMB!!
[b]Homegrown[/b]
[i]Surfer Girl[/i]
I was at the beach, sitting on the sand
When I saw this girl
Dark brown eyes, and a dark olive tan
She was watching the sets
With a surfboard underneath her arm
The first moment I saw her I knew she'd do me some harm
She's so good
She came out of the water
From the best session I'd seen
Man, she had the biggest chi chis I had ever seen
She put down her board, and sat down next to me
And played a soft ole lonely tune, on her ukulele
I don't know what had happened But I'd fallen asleep
The next morning I woke up
She was sleeping next to me
I fell in love with her
I'm so in love with her
I fell in love with her
My little Surfer Girl
She got out of bed
Waxed up both our boards
Grabbed me by the hand and then she took me out the door
We surfed all that day long
At least eight hours straight
Man! I knew she was the one
And damn I couldn't wait
Well I asked if she loved me
She said, "Yeah well I guess"
So I asked her to marry me
Dammit, you know she said "yes"
I fell in love with her
I'm so in love with her
I fell in love with her
My little Surfer Girl
I was at the alter
In my tuxedo-o-o
Waiting for my Surfer Girl
Man, where did she go
Later on that day
A friend to me did tell-ell-ell
That she went to Mexico
To catch a, to Catch a, to catch a 10 foot swell
That Bitch
I fell in love with her
I'm so in love with her
I fell in love with her
My little Surfer Girl
My Surfer Girl
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| soooo true! |
| 01.25.05 (5:25 pm) [edit] |
You Know You Drink Too Much When... |
Your doctor finds traces of blood in your alcohol stream.
The back of your head keeps getting hit by the toilet seat.
The parking lot seems to have moved while you were in the bar
When you go to donate blood and they ask what proof?
You think the Four Basic Food Groups are Caffeine, Nicotine, Alcohol, and Hotties.
You have a "happy hour" at home
When you are sober, people ask you what's wrong?
You spend all night making a board game called Alcohol Land
Although you drove home the other night you can't remember how you got home or where you parked your car
"Hi ocifer. I'm not under the affluence of incohol."
Your favorite drink is ethanol.
"Why does everybody think I have a prinking droblem?! - I don't have a prinking droblem!"
"I don't have a drinking prob..pleb..prub.. *hic* Pash me another, tarbender."
You can spend a whole night holding up walls to prevent their (your) collapse.
You instinctively know where the alcohol is in a store you've never been in before
Clubs raise their drink prices because you haven't attended in a while
You think beer and ramen make a good breakfast
You frequently urinate outdoors.
When you first wake up and you're afraid you're gonna die and a half-hour later you're afraid you won't.
You fall asleep taking a dump.
You believe that spilling a beer is alcohol abuse.
You go to the john to hurl, but you take your beer with you.
You find it's easier to study drunk.
You're on a first name basis at the detoxification center.
Beer ads make sense.
You wake up to the sound of your dog drinking out of the toilet and you're so dry that it sounds mighty thirst quenching.
You wake the next morning and start drinking a few of the half empties left sitting around the room.
The space on your driver's license that tells your eye color reads "bloodshot".
You fall down a flight of steps and DON'T spill a drop of your beer.
You mix your cocktails by the litre.
You grow a beard because it stops beer that's running down your chin.
You put off urinating in hopes of reaching that near orgasmic Zen-like piss.
When the bottle says 20 standard drinks but you only get 5.
You spell Alcohol with a capital letter out of respect
You lose arguments with inanimate objects.
You have to hold onto the lawn to keep from falling off the earth
Your career won't progress beyond Senator from Massachusettes.
24 hours in a day, 24 beers in a case - coincidence?? - I think not!
Two hands and just one mouth... - now THAT'S a drinking problem!
"Norm!" is what they say when you enter the bar.
You can focus better with one eye closed
The parking lot seems to have moved while you were in the bar
You fall off the floor.
You discover in the morning that liquid cleaning supplies have mysteriously disappeared.
Hey, 5 beers has just as many calories as a burger, screw dinner!
Beer: it's not just for breakfast anymore.
The glass keeps missing your mouth.
Vampires get woozy after bitting you.
At AA meeting you begin: "Hi, my name is... uh..."
Your idea of cutting back is less seltzer.
You wake up in the bedroom, your underwear is in the bathroom, you fell asleep clothed. - hmm.
Every night you're beginning to find your roomate's cat more and more attractive.
If you're on a diet, you cut back your food calories to allow for alcohol calories.
"Take me drunk, I'm home!"
You wake up naked lying in the corner of a bus depot.
You drink to get over a hangover.
You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who drink too much. |
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| school..... |
| 01.24.05 (8:03 pm) [edit] |
I am taking 2 internet classes and the website for the classes is down and won't load.....it's not my computer because everything else is fine....how can you have an internet class when the website doesn't freaking work?? When you find out, let me know. Thanks. But class at actual school is ok. My MCO class is like middle school.... the teacher makes us read out loud and everyone takes a turn.....hahaha it is so easy. Then we had to look up our favorite book, tv show, or magazine and find out who owns it....so I looked up the OC, which is on Fox, and Fox is owned my Media Corp. Easy. My photography class is really cool, and my teacher is bomb. She reminds me of my Aunt Kris...they have the exact same voice, long blonde hair, skinny, no makeup, like california pretty......except my teacher has her nose pierced. Badass. It is an intro class, but she was talking about all these intro terms and I was like ummm.....in high school we just like sat around in the darkroom and talked and listened to music.....we knew how to develop pictures and all, but I never knew the technical terms for anything. I have to read 2 chapters in my photography book.... which will be partially boring, but it shows you how to do cool stuff with your camera. I know, i'm a nerd. And then my GPH teacher is out of town so I don't have lecture or lab tomorrow....score. I can sleep in....then I think i'm going to go take pictures out at Camelback. Anyways....Drew, Amy, Suzy, and Jen went out to LA for Price is Right with some other people, but I guess go nobody got on....that sucks. At least they got to go to Disneyland. I need to take a LA trip soon...i'm going through withdrawl! I have so much homework but since I don't have to go to class tomorrow I think I'm going to blow it off until then. Ummmm so nothing too exciting today except Audrey and I are getting ready to watch RR/RW challenge finale....OH and this guy in my photography class is in a frat, and one of his frat brothers is going to be on Real World Austin, and they are filming his fraternity formal!! So I am going to flirt with this guy and try to go with him or one of his friends to this formal so I can be on TV.....because we all know I am a MTV whore.....but even if this guy didn't know the real world guy, I would still probably hang out with him because he seemed pretty cool and let me use some paper. I'm going to go do the dishes....blahhhh....later
[b]SoCo[/b]
[i]Fall[/i]
i close my eyes
thought i was lost but i was stranded
i go outside
to my surprise the sky had landed
i thought it made more sense
if i could only keep you guessing
i was a fool to think that i should stop you from undressing
now i'm believing all the words you say
that i can't say back to you
but so you can
so i fall
i don't wanna feel this small
you know i just can't handle this
handle this at all
and i'll just fall
i let my heartbeat drop
i falter as the music stops
and you watch me as stall
and wonder when i fall
i kiss your neck
i feel you breathing on my shoulder
still i'm perfect
it must be you cause now it's over
i was so close
that was the most that i have ever been through
now old cassettes and cigarettes
will be the ones to save you
how can you ask for me to stay
when all you ever do is go?
just go
and so i fall
i don't wanna feel this small
you know i just can't handle this
handle this at all
and so i fall
i let my heartbeat drop
i falter as the music stops
and you watch me as i stall
and wonder when i..
go on
you've kept me waiting
go on
and watch me as i fall
i don't wanna feel this small
you know i just can't handle this
handle this at all
and so i'll fall
i let my heartbeat drop
i falter as the music stops
and you watch me as stall
and wonder when i..
fall
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| super sloppy...... |
| 01.22.05 (10:38 am) [edit] |
So last night I got super drunk....
Ironically, Audrey and Suzy and I had just been talking about how when you drink you get to that point where you are feeling really good and once you get past that point it is all downhill from there and you can't really stop yourself...so anyways, Drew, Audrey, and I went to Pick Up Stix...yummm....for dinner, then to Urban Outfitters....I got 4 cute shirts, all relating to alcohol, haha, and Drew got a shirt that says B is for Brewski....so cute! And a belt buckle that you can open beer on!! Then we went to safeway and bought beer and a really big bottle of Skyy and went back to Drews. I actually didn't even feel like drinking, and Jen came over and we were all just hanging out, but then their dick head asshole neighbor came over and yelled at me because I parked my car crooked....get a life dude....so I got pissed off and wanted to drink. Suzy and Amy came over, and they wanted to take some shots, so one turned into three turned into five turned into seven then I dont remember. We went over to their apartment, which is so cute!! We were singing and I was drunken text messaging people....I think I sent jake one along the lines of: you are really hot and I wish I could have sex with you right now....and we did some more shots and then I started getting sloppy because we went over to someones house and it hit me and I really didn't feel good so I went and sat outside. Then everyone was going to leave, and I felt bad bc they were leaving just because of me.....and Audrey and Guill drove me home and I threw up in the back of Audreys car. Chinese food and vodka don't mix. I'll have to remember that. So, once again, Taylor gets super sloppy and has to be taken care of :oops: pretty embarassing. Tonight we are going to Sigma Pi but I am NOT drinking that much....pinkie swear!! OMG, I forgot....Kylie called me last night and said some guy put laxatives in her drink (wtf would possess someone to do that, i dont know), so I have to call her and find out what happened.....then I am going back to sleep. Then shopping. Bye!
[b]Death Cab[/b]
[i]Champagne From A Paper Cup[/i]
I think i'm drunk enough to drive you home now
I'll keep my mouth kept shut from under lock and key
That's rusted firm, no lie
'cause all these conversations wind on and on...
Drinking champagne from a paper cup
Is never quite the same
And every sip's moving through my eyes
And up into my brain
At half past two; about time to leave
'cause the dj's playing rhythm and blues
A sad-sorry state, stutter step to those slammin' grooves
As i'm waiting around for you...
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| starting off this semester with a bang |
| 01.21.05 (12:21 pm) [edit] |
Ok, for the record, I am slacking.....AGAIN
I have already missed 2 classes and Its the first week of school. Go me! One, because I added these classes and the computer was being weird and said they were closed even though they weren't so I was like ok no point in going.....and then today I feel like a total idiot because I made this big deal to Audrey about going to class today, and I didn't go because I forgot I turned off the ringer on my phone.....so I feel like a bitch AND a slacker. Sorry podge :oops: So starting monday I am going to all my classes!! I really, really like my Meteorology class and my teacher, but it is hard!! My first lab has all this math in it and I HATE math....I am going to have to ask one of the smart boys to help me. I haven't had a math class since my junior year in h.s., and even then I didn't go, and when I did I just stared/flirted with Mike Pope the whole time, and the only reason I passed was because Mrs.Orr loved me. Technically, I haven't done math since Freshman year, because Sophomore year my Geometry class was a joke, and all Coach Rushing did was play Solitare on his computer and all we did was play Revolution or Poker. We had VOCABULARY tests. And it was HONORS geometry. Hahaha I got a 98. Anyways.....last night Audrey and I went over to Drew and Rob's and watched a movie... Drew and I drank a whole bottle of Hypnotiq. It really makes no sense that it is $30 a bottle but only 17% alcohol. For $30 a bottle you should get more drunk than that!! Well, I have to take a shower and go to the bank and stuff so later dudes.
[b]Mest[/b]
[i]Jaded[/i]
There's a time and place, for everything.
There's a reason why, certain people meet.
There's a destination, for everyone.
What's the explanation, when we're done?
All the summer nights spent wondering;
So many questions asked, but no one's answering.
Would it be okay if I left today?
Took my chances on what you said was wrong?
I'm jaded, stupid, and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret.
These years spent, so faded and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret these years.
I'll never regret these years.
Now here i sit, so far away.
Remembering all our memories.
Its times like these that I miss you most,
Remembering when we were so close.
I'm jaded, stupid, and wreckless.
Not sorry, we'll never regret.
These years spent, so faded and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret these years.
We'll never forget the places we've been, you and i.
Our lives are slipping away.
Don't want to let time pass us by, byyyyyyy...
I'm jaded, stupid, and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret.
These years....
...spent, so faded and wreckless,
Not sorry, and I'll never regret...
I'm jaded, stupid, and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret these years.
i miss you guys!!
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| pajo is a pimp!!! |
| 01.19.05 (11:02 pm) [edit] |
we are talking to pajo on the phone....i LOVE HIM and i miss him!!!!!! we are both a lirttle drunk. I hate school. So does audrey. I actually didnt go today because for some reason my classes got dropped but now it is ok. I LOVE my meteorology class though....my meteorology teacher is grady dixon, and he was Hal and Drew's teacher. I talked to Hal today....he is coming to visit. I might go visit him at Pepp because I love Pepp...I am just in a very loving mood :) HAHAHAHAHAHA audrey was joking about the squealer and paj hung up on her! she was just kidding!! call me big daddy when you back that ass up.....ok im drunk....we have to wake up at 7 tomorrow...eww...that sucks....time for the hypnotiq bitches. Has anyone noticed that I have been a bad girl since I have been back to the AZ?? I HAVE!!! hehehe :wink:
audrey loves this song
[b]LFO[/b]
[i]Summer Girls[/i]
Yeah...I like it when the girls stop by.. In the summer
Do you remember, Do you remember?
...when we met..That summer??
New Kids On The block,had a bunch of hits
Chinese food makes me sick.
And I think it's fly when girls stop by for the summer,for the summer
I like girls that wear Abercrombie and Fitch,
I'd take her if I had one wish,
But she's been gone since that summer..
Since that summer
Hip Hop Marmalade spic And span,
Met you one summer and it all began
Your the best girl that I ever did see,
The great Larry Bird Jersey 33
When you take a sip you buzz like a hornet
Billy Shakespere wrote a whole bunch of sonnets
Call me Willy Whistle cause I can't speak baby
Sumthin in your eyes went and drove me crazy
Now I can't forget you and it makes me mad,
Left one day and never came back
Stayed all summer then went back home,
Macauly Culkin wasn't Home Alone
Fell deep in love,but now we ain't speakin
Michael J Fox was Alex P Keaton
When I met you I said my name was Rich
You look like a girl from Abercrombie and Fitch
New Kids On The block,had a bunch of hits
Chinese food makes me sick.
And I think it's fly when girls stop by for the summer,for the summer
I like girls that wear Abercrombie and Fitch,
I'd take her if I had one wish,
But she's been gone since that summer..
Since that summer
Cherry Pez,cold crush,rock star boogie
Used to hate school so I had to play hookie,
Always been hip to the B-boY Style
Known to act wild and make girls smile,
Love New Edition and the Candy Girl
Remind me of you because you rock my world
You come from Georgia where the peaches grow
They drink lemonade and speak real slow
You love hip hop and rock n roll
Dad took off when you were 4 years old
There was a good man named Paul Revere
I feel much better baby when you're near
You love fun dip and cherry Coke,
I like the way you laugh when I tell a joke
When I met you I said my name was Rich
You look like a girl from Abercrombie and Fitch
Bridge In the summertime girls got it goin on,
Shake and wiggle to a hip hop song
Summertime girls are the kind I like,
I'll steal your honey like I stole your bike
Bugaloo shrimp and pogo sticks
My mind takes me back there oh so quick
Let you off the hook like my man Mr. Lipit
Think about that summer and I bug,cause I miss it
Like the color purple,macaroni and cheese,
Ruby red slippers and a bunch of trees
Call you up but whats the use
I like Kevin Bacon,but I hate Footloose
Came in the door I said it before,I think I'm over you
but I'm really not sure
When I met you I said my name was Rich
You look like a girl from Abercrombie and Fitch
In the summer girls come and summer girls go
Some are worth while and some are so so,
Summer girls come and summer girls go
Some are worth while and some are so so,
Summertime girls got it goin on
Shake and wiggle to a hip hop song
Summertime girls are the kind I like
I'll steal your honey like I stole your bike
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| back in the AZ |
| 01.17.05 (10:16 pm) [edit] |
So I'm back in Arizona....finally! Last night I got in and Audrey and Rob picked me up from the airport.....I was so excited because they brought Tiger!! I almost cried when I saw her, I MISSED HER SO MUCH!!! We went to safeway and got some Skyy and Hypnotiq (even though Rob and Audrey were already drunk). It was funny....when I was checking out in line this kid I went to high school with, and actually sat next to at graduation, was behind me in line buying beer.....so its like hey southlake alkie don't you love your fake id?? We went over to Rob's neighbors house....Guill and Andy were over there drinking and playing halo (SHOCK) so we did some shots....I was really bored and I wanted to go home and go to sleep but I ended up sleeping in Drew's bed. Audrey woke me up in the middle of the night and took a picture of me. Not cool dude! We went to McDonalds for breakfast.....bc McDonalds breakfast is bomb when you are still drunk.....I came home and went back to sleep. Audrey and I went to Texas Roadhouse....so good, but it made me miss Kylie!!! We went to Wal Mart, then came home and watched the movie Thirteen. Such a fucked up movie! Then we went and got Rob and went to IKEA....always an adventure. I love pushing Audrey in the cart because people give us weird looks. I got the cutest PINK desk. I'm actually excited to start class tomorrow. I have laundry and unpacking to do so later!!
[b] The Format [/b]
[i] Tune Out [/i]
Its your bed,
so please choose a side
ill take the one closest to the door
and you start to speak
the words that try to
Justify do far more wrong then anything you do
so grab the coat, the keys,
the tension speaks but we're singing it
Ill tap the break while you crack the window
the smell of smoke is making my lungs explode
the 51 is backed up and too slow
Lets tune out by turning on the radio
and this town is dead
weve been caught in these sheets way too long
lets just see whos up on this screen
no one i know is more depressing then me
or should i say the two of us
cause after all we're all weve got
And tension speaks but we're singing it
Ill tap the break while you crack the window the smell of smoke is making my lungs explode the 51 is backed up and too slow
Lets tune out by turning on the radio
And oh my love youre all i need
backed behind a frequency
they played this song an hour ago
lets tune out by turning on the radio
havent we heard this song about a thousand times before
oh well after awhile it all sounds the same
i guess its better than silence and better than the same
lets tune out
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| a new beginning |
| 01.16.05 (12:30 am) [edit] |
I am sad to be leaving Texas tomorrow, well actually today, but excited to get back to AZ. I will have to go back to missing everyone here, but the good news is that Kylie is coming in February and Jake, Roy, and maybe Pajo are coming later this semester. I have done alot of thinking over the break and its time for me to make a change. I am over certain things. And people. No more slacking off....I am almost halfway done with college and its time I figure out what I am going to do with my life and stop screwing around. After alot of debate, I have decided to change my major to Journalism and Mass Communications, which is a really broad major that would allow me to either go to FIDM, or to law school. I had thought Law School was out but I've wanted to do that for such a long time I just don't know. If I did go to Law School, it would definately be at UT, no questions asked. I am actually excited to start classes on Tuesday.....they are all classes that actually interest me! I am going to take Photography, like I did in High School, so I think that will be fun. Everyone excuse me and get used to me taking a bunch of pictures of everything. I don't know if everyone noticed, I know some people did, but I was like REALLY depressed towards the end of the semester.....there would be days I didn't even get out of bed. So I need to get things to where I am OK with myself again because right now I am not. So I'm going to work really hard this semester to be a whole new me.....because who I was just wasn't cutting it.
[b]Simple Plan[/b]
[i]Me Against The World[/i]
We're not gonna be
Just apart of their game
We're not gonna be
Just the victims
They're taking our dreams
And they tear them apart
Til everyone's the same
I've got no place to go
I've got no where to run
They love to watch me fall
They think they know it all
I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always say
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
I've gotta prove them wrong
Me against the world
It's me against the world
We won't let them change
How we feel in our hearts
We're not gonna let them control us
We won't let them shove
All their thoughts in our heads
And we'll never be like them
I've got no place to go
I've got no where to run
They love to watch me fall
They think they know it all
I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always say
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
I'm gonna prove them wrong
It's me against the world
Me against the world
Now I'm sick of this waiting
So come on and take your shot
You can spit all your insults
But nothing you say is gonna change us
You can sit there and judge me
Say what you want to
We'll never let you in
I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always said
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
Me against the world
I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always said
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
I've got to prove them wrong
They'll never bring us down
We'll never fall in line
I'll make it on my own
Me against the world
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| weird night.... |
| 01.14.05 (3:23 pm) [edit] |
I went over to Jake's last night and it was weird. Like I don't really know how to explain it, I just felt out of place. Most of the time it is cool over there, even if I don't know everyone, but last night was weird. I just felt like people were like look at that preppy southlake bitch and nobody wanted me to be there. So yeah. Weird. I doubt if I will see Jake or Joey or any of them before I leave because tonight I am hanging out with my cousin at TCU and going to Dallas tomorrow night. Hopefully they will still come visit me but as of now I don't know! I am stoked to get back to the AZ and see Audrey and Tiger! And everyone else too. Kylie will hopefully be able to come visit in February. I am soooo sad we didn't get to hang out that much, but we have been on the phone making fun of people we went to high school with on facebook. We are cool like that. The thing I miss about Southlake that I don't have in AZ is here I can go out for a run or rollerblading at night and not have to worry about anything, and there I would be scared to go anywhere past my house! I can go over to school and run around the track but thats kind of a pain in the ass. It is really sheltered here, but nice in a way. You take that for granted. Well I am like sloppy gross because I didn't wake up til 5....so I need to take a shower before I go over to Ft. Worth!! Lets hope tonight will be better than last night....later.....
[b]Puddle Of Mudd[/b]
[i]Blurry[/i]
Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it my face
Everyone is changing
there's noone left that's real
to make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it my face
Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
told you when to runaway
nobody told you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to runaway
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
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| haven't written in awhile.... |
| 01.10.05 (6:25 pm) [edit] |
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Haven't written in awhile, tblog is always down whenever I try to write.... everyone was out of town last week so there wasn't anything too exciting to write about anyways. I am still in Texas until Sunday....sad about leaving but looking forward to seeing everyone at the same time. My parents have been doing the Atkins diet, so I tried to....that lasted 5 days. EW is all I have to say.....I don't know how you can just eat meat all the time. I am going to start working out a bunch when I get back to AZ, and cutting down the drinking would help too.....I have been better about that lately though, New Years was the first time I got really drunk since that incident in November which will remain nameless! I've only gotten to see Kylie once since I've been home, and we went over to Jakes with Brandon, which was really embarassing because Brandon was just being obnoxious. Heres the thing. Whenever I go over there, I don't really like to announce I am from Southlake because people will automatically assume I am a stuck up bitch. I mean the people I am friends with know that, but other than that nobody else needs to know unless they ask. Well we go over there and Kristen was saying how she was watching something about these rich kids who go to the Hamptons for vacation and get all fucked up and stuff, and of course Brandon has to say "Oh, I go there" like really snobbishly. He doesn't mean to act like that, its just the way he is. Then he was saying stuff about the carpet and just embarassing me and Kylie so bad.... so finally I told Joey we were going to "Take Brandon Home" and kind of played it off like he was drunk. And I normally wouldn't think anything of it, but Joey has text messaged or called me pretty much every day I have been home and asked me to hang out or something and I haven't talked to him since so I hope I didn't offend him or anything. Tonight I watched the Bachelorette with my Mom.....I love trashy reality TV. There is this guy on there named Jerry who is SO HOT!!! He looks like Josh Duhamel, and if I had to pick my dream guy, looks wise, it would be Josh Duhamel. Or Ashton Kutcher. Anyways that is besides the point. I want to go out tonight but I have been in my PJs all day so that would mean I would have to get dressed....ugh.....so I guess I'll go do that....later!
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| kinda drunk! |
| 01.05.05 (10:45 pm) [edit] |
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Sooo I'm a little buzzed. Forguve ne if I ramble. I went over to Jakes tonigft, but Jake was not there because he is skiing. He gave his hiouse key to Joey and Shawn. I'm not sure if that was a good idea. I was si excited to see Shawn bc I havent seen him in forever!! I still want him and Ashley to get marriewd and have filipino babies. And then Kylie and Pajo can get married and Jake and I can get married and we will all live by eachother and live happily ever after. Anyways....we drank some beer and watch Anchorman. Funny movie. Some reflections of the Orange Bowl last night:
-I want to marry Matt Leinart and have his babies & nbsp; &n bsp; &nb sp; &nbs p; ; & nbsp; &n bsp;
-Jason White is the fugliest quarterback eever
-Oklahoma is inbred
-I hate Bob Stoops anbd I hope he gets hit by a trick
-Watching Oklahgoma completely get their ass kicked is better than sex
thanks.
I can't wait til tomorrow bc I finally get to see my Kylie!! YAY, and ion Sunday Jake and Paj and everyone else come back. I do miss Audrewy but Im not in any rush to go back. My weatherbug says it is 21 degrees,. WTF this is texas its not supiossed to be that cold. At least I have an excuse to wear my cuite pink uggs. Well Im going to pass ouit. This wasx the song I was listening to on the way home. I love Lucky 7, It reminds me of the summer between senior year and college which was like the best summer ewver. Later/
Lucky 7
Falling Asleep
Stressed out hurting like a Monday.
Blacked out all the words I couldn't say.
Too much is never enough for you.
Situation might sort out easily.
But frustration gets the best of me.
Deal the hand there's nothing left to lose.
Nothing seems to go my way.
Gonna drive my car off the edge of this dead-end highway.
Yeah, so as you're falling asleep.
I hope you got what you need.
There's nothing left that you can say.
Lying there, you're a lie to me.
Messed up sweet angel leaves a bad taste.
Fed up cause you always try to save face.
Every star I wish upon falls on me.
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| rain, rain go away! |
| 01.04.05 (10:40 am) [edit] |
Ewww its been raining here for the past few days....rain makes me sooo sleepy. I am glad I'm home, and glad I'm staying longer, but I'm pretty much just killing time til the boys come back from skiing. I have no idea where Kylie is, it sucks that we haven't gotten to hang out yet. I'm going to see if Skye wants to go to Sushi Sam tonight.....so bomb. I'm going shopping with my mom later to hit up the VS Semi Annual Sale...always a good time. I want to see everyone in AZ but I'm really not that excited to go back. Last year when I was home for christmas I couldn't wait to go back. Maybe its that I don't want to deal with all the drama there, I don't know. I am so over what happened though. And one thing about me is that I am stubborn as hell, and when I make up my mind to be completely over something it is done and over. I just don't know if things are going to be different or what.....we'll see. I hope Price Is Right is still on because I can't wait to go see Ash. I miss Audrey! I wish she could come here. Poor kid is super sick, I felt soooo bad when I was talking to her yesterday bc she just sounded miserable! I hope you are feeling better......well I'm gonna go take a shower and stuff so later.
[b]Kelly Clarkson[/b]
[i]Since You've Been Gone[/i]
Here's the thing we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone
You dedicated you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah Yeah
Since you've been gone
And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say
But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you've been gone
How can I put it? you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone
How come I never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
I guess you never felt that way
But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone
You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again
Since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get
I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know)
That I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone
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| i LOVE texas!! |
| 01.02.05 (2:32 pm) [edit] |
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I'm supossed to go back to the AZ on Wednesday, but I'm having so much fun here I'm going to stay til the 15th. I want to see Audrey, Jen, and Tiger but Jake, Pajo, Roy, and everyone else went skiing today so I only got to see them for like 2 days and they are coming back on the 8th. I'm not sure how long Kylie is staying but I just don't want to leave yet. I'd forgotten how much fun they all are....it makes me want to come back and go to school here or something. Jake, Pajo, Roy, and maybe Joey are coming to ASU later this semester to check it out. Paj will stay at Baylor, but if Jake and Roy went to ASU I would be soooooooo happy, I love them both!! And btw, Jake just gets hotter everytime I see him. New Years was the most fun I have had in a really long time. I went over to Jakes kind of early, and I had a bottle of Grey Goose and Champagne, so I did some shots with Karolina and Jake and I had some Red Bulls and Vodka. Everyone was drinking liquor so we were all completely wasted by about 11. There were probably about 50 people over by midnight, and Charlie was filming everyone.....I watched the video the next day and it is the funniest thing I have ever seen!! When Pajo popped the champagne at midnight it got all in my hair and then I kissed Jake, Pajo, and I think maybe Karolina and Kristen. Joey made the mistake of passing out first so everyone drew all over him in sharpie...poor kid. I can't even explain everything else that happened but it was so fun. I slept over there but didn't go to sleep til like 5ish.....maybe even 6? I don't remember. I woke up at 9 with the worst hangover ever and wanted to go home so I came home and went back to sleep for awhile then went back to Jakes to watch the Rose Bowl....what a freaking awesome game. I wish I could have gone.....Vince Young was on fire. Half man, half amazing!! Jake and I tried to go to the liquor store after the game, but they were all closed so we came back to my house and were going to get a bottle of rum out of my pantry but my mom was being a bitch so Timmy pulled off a clutch move....like the coolest thing I have ever seen her do!! She and her bf pretended to get the dog's leash out of the pantry and got the bottle then acted like they were taking him for a walk and brought me the bottle out in the car. What a badass I am so proud of her! So we went back to Jake's house and hung out and they were packing and stuff....I wish I was going skiing with them, they are going to have soooo much fun! Jake kept saying that this was the last time he was going to see everyone because he had a feeling they were all going to die in a car accident. Ok, please don't say that! I hope they make it up there ok. I still haven't gotten to see Kylie, she went to the Cotton Bowl yesterday and I guess she has been busy with her family. Hopefully I will see her tonight, I don't know. I miss her!! Anyways....I am watching Wicker Park with Timmy and Josh Hartnett is so hot he is distracting me, so later.....
Ashlee Simpson
Undiscovered
Take it back, take it all back now
The things I gave, like the taste of my kiss on your lips,
I miss that now
I can't try any harder than I do
All the reasons I gave, excuses I made for you
I'm broken in two
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you
Don't walk away
Touch me now how I wanna feel
Something so real, please remind me
My love, and take me back
Cuz I'm so in love with what we were
I'm not breathing I'm suffocating without you
Do u feel it too?
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you
When I'm in the dark and all alone
Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door,
Its then I know my heart is whole
There's a million reasons why I cry
Hold my covers tight and close my eyes
Cuz I don't wana be alone
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you, I need you
Cuz I can't fake and I can't hate
But it's my heart
Thats about to break
You're all I need
I'm on my knees
Watch me bleed
Would you listen please
I give in
I breathe out
I want you, theres no doubt
I freak out, I'm left out
Without you, I'm without
I'm crossed out
I can't doubt
I cry out
I reach out
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
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