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| WTF |
| 02.28.05 (11:36 pm) [edit] |
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I am pissed. Pissed at myself for watching too much reality TV, and pissed about how you get drawn into it!! So heres the deal. I've been watching the Bachelorette the past two months because I'm a loser. And tonight was the last one....she picked Jerry, who I wanted her to pick, but then they did this gay thing where after he proposed to her she was like "Well I just want to wait a little while to be engaged so I know everything will work out". So a few months go by, and they aired it tonight and this special afterwards where she was going to give Jerry her answer. She ended up saying she just wanted to be friends with him. WTF DOES THIS GIRL NEED TO MAKE HER HAPPY?? She had Andrew Firestone, then Jerry, who is like drop dead freaking gorgeous AND a Harry Winston engagement ring......what a dumb bitch. So that was like 2 months of my Monday nights wasted. THANKS. Anyways....after that Audrey and I went and watched Troy with Drew and Suz. It was SOOOO sad. And Brad Pitt looked amazing in it. I didn't expect it to be a sad movie but it made me cry! It was so depressing! I got my bday present from Muzzy in the mail today, this really pretty necklace from Tiffany (loves it). The chain is kind of short though so i'm going to go over to Scottsdale tomorrow and see if I can get a longer one. I can't wait til Saturday for my birthday party!! But I am even more excited for my birthday DINNER at Cheesecake Factory....my favorite place ever. Now I am hungry and I want cheesecake. I have eaten sooo much today. Oh and because Audrey and I are so hot, we didn't have to pay for our drinks at sonic tonight. How many of you can say that??? Well I'm going to be a myspace whore, so later
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| about last night.... |
| 02.27.05 (8:53 pm) [edit] |
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Last night was weird.....fun, but a lot of weird things happened. Audrey was missing and everyone freaked out, but she's OK so its all good. Jen and some of her friends came over for some pregame, except we didn't have much to drink so we went over to Amy and Suzy's.....hung out there for awhile then we all went over to this other kid's party in the Village (Jen's friend...well ex friend...Tom's Bday Party). It was really crowded and hot inside and smelled weird so Audrey and I hung out on the balcony for awhile. Then these two guys came outside, and I thought one was cool because he was wearing a UT hat so I was like yayyyy TEXAS!! But it turns out he was a huge tool. He and his friend smoked newports and kept telling racist jokes....they weren't funny or cool. So we went back inside and I played some flipcup. The girls kick ass. Except the drunker I got, I was having a hard time flipping. I met this guy named Shane who was from Smithson Valley and he was like fuck Southlake (bc we beat them at state) but he was actually really cool....so then other people were like eww Southlake....there are always random Texas people at parties here and automatically assume I'm a bitch. But i'm not. Well maybe sometimes. I met this kid from Plano, I had met him a few times before actually, his name was Shea....and he knew Brittany Kenter. Then he asked me if I knew this kid he used to hang out with in Plano named Michael Thomson that died. I was like ummm actually I was the one driving. So we had the whole accident convo and I started to cry so that was embarassing. Its just so random that he knew him. Then I met a kid from Grapevine. Small world....so all of us Texas people started talking about how amazing Taco Bueno is and how much we wished they had them in AZ. Then I called Pajo and talked to him about Taco Bueno. I'm going to see if when they come and visit if they will bring me some. That would be bomb. So we all eventually went back to Suz's, and Helli and I went to this mexican restaurant, like real mexican. They don't speak english there so Helli ordered everything in Spanish...I was impressed. The food was really good too! We went back and played Kings, and there was this crazy weird girl who works with Suzy, Andy, and Helli at Sports Authority and she kept on hugging me....it was weird. Audrey thought she was a lesbian but she was making out with some boy so maybe she was bi. I don't know. Jen was really upset bc this boy Tom was being mean to her so we tried to cheer her up but I don't think it helped. I sobered up and took Jen to her car and went home and the people downstairs were having a party and being really loud....it was 3:30 so I was not happy. They always bump their music and its not cool. Like I don't care if you have a party, but 3:30 is kind of late to be that loud....because it vibrates my walls and then I can't sleep and that makes me mad. Plus people were screaming and throwing beer bottles and stuff....not cool. So I went and slept in Audrey's room....they finally stopped being loud around 6 so I went back to my room. Then they started playing their music again at 10 AM. THAT IS FUCKING REDICULOUS!! It makes me really mad because we have talked to them before about how their music bothers us but they continue to do it. The next time that happens I'm going to talk to them. I don't want to be a bitch but it is just rude to play it THAT LOUD. You can enjoy your music without vibrating everyone elses walls. Annoying. Jen came over and hung out for a little bit and we watched the Oscars.....Scarlett Johanssen's hair looks like shit. Yeah so thats about it. Later.
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| I just don't remember.... |
| 02.25.05 (11:11 pm) [edit] |
So last night I got a "little" drunk......
I woke up this morning, well more like 2 pm, on my kitchen floor in my underwear. I can't figure this out because I wasn't wearing any underwear last night, so this means I had to go into my room and put on underwear....why I didn't pass out in my bed I don't know??? I also don't remember how I got home (it turns out Drew drove me because I tried to walk home from the village), I lost my shoes, I don't know where my phone is so I have been cut off from the world all day, I have bruises on my legs and cuts on my hand and arm.....so who knows. It started out with $3 scooners of Dos Equis at Bostons....I only had one, but when we left I was pretty buzzed....then we had to break out the shots of Skyy....I don't know how many I had. I remember everything up to the point where Skye and Liz came over and after that...nothing. Apparently there are pictures of Me and Audrey and Ross kissing....don't remember that. I barely remember Ross coming over! I do remember talking to Dom on the phone and having a heart to heart with Rob and Andy.....and I guess I thought it would be fun to play with Suzy's sunless tanner so now my hands are orange....oops. I'm just glad I didn't actually walk home bc thats a good 2 miles at least and I probably would've passed out somewhere along the way and get gang banged by the mexicans on Don Carlos. There is a party at the village tonight and I kind of wish I would have gone because I'm bored now, but I am still sooooo hungover. It hurts to move my head. I hate getting 24 hour hangovers.....I think I would've been fine if I didn't drink the beer....beer before liquor, never been sicker! So now I'm hanging out with Tig listening to Boyz II Men (Motown Philly has been in my head since The OC last night.....I AM SO HAPPY SETH AND SUMMER ARE BACK TOGETHER!). Oh and another thing. I didn't go to class today and my teacher said if I miss one more she is going to drop me, so I'm screwed if she does. I need to email her, but I don't even know what to say....I didn't train today either. So naughty. I just want to drop out of school and live on the beach in a sleeping bag. Seriously. That would be awesome. Then I could surf every day. Well....i'm going to try to pass out....
[b]Dislocated Styles[/b]---great song
[i]Liquified[/i]
I am falling and I cant get up
I tried to walk but almost threw up
Only took a few shots but that didnt last
This time Mr. Cuevo got the last laugh
I felt the burning going down my throat
So I had to follow it down with some crown and coke
Now Im twisted who got the herb lets get lifted
Carring it aroung two drinks double fisted
To all the nights that I came home
With my head hangin out the car window
Came sumbling through the front door
And passed out on the bathroom floor
Get liquified get up
Raise up your cups and drink up
Its as simple as that
Get liquified get up
when you see me in the club show me love
Cuz I'll give it right back
To all the nights that I came home
With my head hangin out the car window
Came sumbling through the front door
And passed out on the bathroom floor
Get liquified get up
Raise up your cups and drink up
Its as simple as that
Get liquified get up
when you see me in the club show me love
Cuz I'll give it right back
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| boo...you whore |
| 02.23.05 (11:17 pm) [edit] |
Audrey is making me write in my blog even though I really don't have anything to say. The finale of Project Runway was tonight, and Jay won.....I love Jay's personality but I wanted Kara Saun to win because I think her clothes are beautiful. I worked out with Larry today and he kicked my ass.....my arms hurt. Then I went tanning and the weird guy that works there hit on me (again), which I think is gross because I had just worked out and I was all nasty and sweaty. I really don't like being hit on at the gym....its kind of icky. Flattering I guess, but icky. I know LA Fitness is the Scottsdale Beautiful and Bulimic hangout and maybe they all come to check eachother out, but I don't want to have to worry about looking cute while i'm working out. Today in class we talked about beer for the entire time.... it was fun. My teacher was saying she used to pay 35 cents for a beer....now its like $5, which is rediculous. My teacher is only like 35 so its not like she was in college a long time ago or anything. I am really excited for Spring Break and can't wait to see the boys. Then my parents come the week after, and we are going to redo the kitchen (yay) and Timmy is coming too!! I actually miss the little shit.....even though at home she drives me insane. Yeah so i'm going to drink a beer....peace out
[b]Senses Fail[/b]
[i]Bloody Romance[/i]
Life, is floating fast away.
But I look, your head is turned away.
From the moment you left I knew that something wasn't right.
But the feeling inside has kept me up all night.
You and me are like one heart-beat.
You and me are like one heart-beat.
So slice open my veins.
And let, the romance bleed away.
From the moment you left I knew that something wasn't right.
But the feeling inside has kept me up all night.
You and me are like one heart-beat.
You and me are like one heart-beat.
Back into I thought I knew, these words inside me, tell me what to do.
My heart held, in the palm of your hand.
Now I know, the way to go, this place inside my demented mind.
You saw me bleeding on the bathroom floor.
This time in silence, this time I win.
Now you will feel my pain
Forget my name
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| 02.23.05 (12:39 am) [edit] |
 | You scored as Marijuana. The most beautiful, chill drug out there. You want something that's not too harsh on your body, and soothes the soul. It's also not addicting, so smoke it up, baby! And never have to go through withdrawls.
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| my space whore |
| 02.20.05 (11:21 pm) [edit] |
I am such a loser....and its all Audrey's fault. I am completely addicted to myspace. It has become an obsession. It is the greatest feeling when you log on and it says "New Messages!" and "New Friend Requests!".....I love it. Facebook is gay but its fun to look at all the bitches you hated in high school that are now fat and bloated because of all the beer they drink. I'm not one to talk, but its still fun. Myspace is amazing. Tonight I found Ray Brady....the love of my life. And for those of you who don't know who that is....you aren't that cool anyway. My birthday is 2 weeks from today!! YAY! There is going to be a huge party......I wish the boys would be here for that, but its cool because we are going to have a party while they are here either way. Ummmm yeah so anyways, nothing too exciting today except there is no school tomorrow (President's Day) so I should be drinking but i'm not. I should also be doing my French homework but i'm not doing that either. Friday night when I was really pissed off and thought everyone was ditching me.....it turns out everyone got shitfaced by 10 pm and thought I was coming over but never showed up.....noo... you were just too drunk to call me and ask me to come over!! Apparently everyone was making out with everyone else.....Audrey had to makeout with Rob, Andy, AND Drew.....I don't know if I am glad I missed that or not? haha. We are like counting the days til the boys come....19 to be exact.....I am so stoked because I love them so much! They are seriously like my favorite people in the whole world. Well.......i'm going to get a drink so PEACE out dudes!
[b]Finch[/b]
[i]Waiting[/i]
Today is just like all the others
I'm not alright i've cried my last tears
I'm bleeding out my pain as you scream at me (Just Why?)
You've got me waiting by myself
I never wanted more than this
What will it take to get the truth
I'm on my knees
Another page of i'm sorry's addressed to me
Another story for the collection of memories folded neatly(Just Why?)
You've got me waiting by myself
I never wanted more than this
What will it take to get the truth
I'm on my knees
And I will never make the same mistake...
And I will never make the same mistake...
Cause I will never make the same mistake...
Cause I will never make the same mistake...
You've got me waiting by myself
I never wanted more than this
What will it take to get the truth
I'm on my knees
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| ...how did i end up here |
| 02.18.05 (11:48 pm) [edit] |
Somedays I wonder how the hell I ended up here....
I always thought my life would be so different. I wonder what would have happened if I would've taken the other path.....made different choices. I always felt that life was what was expected of me, picked out for me. I can see it: I would be at UT or SMU, be a Kappa, still hang out with all my high school friends, go home on the weekend. Would I be happier had I done that? Or felt like I was trying to be something I'm really not.....pretty much what I felt like for the majority of high school when I tried to fit the "southlake mold". What a waste of time. 2 years ago I would have never thought this is where I would be. But at the moment I am here........pissed off, not feeling good, homesick, missing Kylie and everyone else. I am kind of cracked out on cold medicine but I do think these thoughts every day. I just don't know anymore.
[b]Postal Service[/b]
[i]This Place Is A Prison[/i]
This place is a prison
And these people aren't your friends
Inhaling thrills through $20 bills
And the tumblers are drained and then flooded again
And again
Ther're guards at the on ramps armed to the teeth
And you may case the grounds from the cascades to puget sound,
But you are not permitted to leave
I know there's a big world out there like the one i saw on the screen
In my living room late last night,
It was almost too bright to see
And i know that it's not a party if it happens every night
Pretending there's glamour and candelabra
When you're drinking by candlelight
What does it take to get a drink in this place?
What does it take, how long must i wait?
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| drink up |
| 02.17.05 (1:15 am) [edit] |
Tonight Rob, Andy, and Guill came over.....which was cool because it feels like I haven't hung out with them in forever. I wish Drew had come too.....but I never ever get to see him anymore because he is always at the Village :( That makes me sad.....because I love Drew! Anyways.....I'm kind of sick so I just stayed in bed all day and had to cancel my trainer. MY THROAT HURTS SO BAD....but vodka makes it feel better haha. I took a nap, and I missed Alias.....I was thinking it was on at 9 for some reason. But I got to see Project Runway....I HATE WENDY! If Kara Saun doesn't win I will freak out. The boys came over around 11....just in time to ruin Newlyweds and Ashlee. I hate watching reality TV with them because they analyze everything and make fun of it.....Its just no fun. I don't care if Ashlee can't really sing, I still love her!! Then we played some drinking games.....I was planning on getting really drunk but then we watched the Grudge and I didn't really continue to drink even though everyone else was....theres a first! So I just took Andy and Guill home....Rob's still hanging out. I need to get a job. My parents give me money and said I don't have to work but I like to have extra money so I can go shopping. I haven't been shopping in FOREVER. I was planning on going to Kitson and Lisa Kline on Saturday but that didn't work out. Its probably for the best because I would've blown way too much money. I AM SO EXCITED....my birthday is in 18 days, and you guys better throw me a party.....and the boys are coming in 24!! I can't wait.......well I am tired so im going to sleep! Nighty night
[b]Spitalfield[/b] ---- new cd kicks ass
[i]What Were We Thinking[/i]
its a cold night
but i warm up as you walk by
and im watching you
i always do
and its alright
ive dreamt this dream a thousand times
and this time
i know what to do
i know what to do
when we go out
i wanna let it go
spinning in slow motion as we fall apart
you can throw out the instructions
we dont need them anymore
i know where we are going
if i could just get out the door
youve got your perfect hands
youve got your perfect hands
over my nervous heart
i can never act this way again
can never feel this way again
not afraid of falling down
wait up
wait up
wait up
ive got some ways
i cannot wait
im looking in your eyes
talk to me so beautifully
when we go out
i wanna let it go
spinning in slow motion as we fall apart
you can throw out the instructions
we dont need them anymore
i know where we are going
if i could just get out the door
youve got your perfect hands
youve got your perfect hands
over my nervous heart
i cant feel
i cant feel alone
i cant feel
when i breathe you in
i cant feel my heart
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| you didn't buy me one single flower....not even a dying cardnation! |
| 02.14.05 (8:22 pm) [edit] |
♥VALENTiNES DAY♥
I am not one of those people that gets all upset if I don't have a boyfriend on Valentine's Day. I think thats stupid. The only time I have ever had a boyfriend on Valentine's Day was twice with Marc, and those are my Valentine's memories. I don't need a boy to make me feel good about myself. I have never been one of those girls who always has to have a boyfriend or be dating someone.....I hate that. It is pointless to be with someone just so you aren't alone.....make it count. I could think that because I got burned so bad by Marc, or maybe its because I'm super picky. And I also have a bunch of friends that ALWAYS have to be with a guy, and it just makes me think if they will ever be OK by themselves. What if they get married and never know what its like to be independent and be on their own and not really know who they are? I think thats sad. I mean, if you find your true love and never have to be without them thats awesome. But for most people that's not the case. Anyways. There is my opinion on valentines day. I went to class today, worked out, went tanning, and went to Safeway. It was not until I got to Safeway that I got kind of pissed off. There were all these stupid people in there buying the last dying roses for $6 per rose, which is dumb. If that person really means that much to you, you would've gotten them something before 9 pm on Valentines Day. And all I wanted was a chocolate cupcake. Thats all I fucking wanted. But no, they only had vanilla. I was pissed. I have wanted a chocolate cupcake for 4 days now, and I even did 30 minutes extra cardio to make up for the calories I was planning on eating. But I didn't get my damn cupcake. And that makes me mad. Audrey was supossed to get me a cinnamon roll at IKEA but she never came home. I am assuming she is at Rob's. Well, I am going to take a shower, read my new cosmo, then probably go to sleep since I have class early tomorrow....booo. 26 DAYS TIL THE BOYS COME :)
p.s. i LOVE this song
[b]The Postal Service[/b]
[i]Against All Odds[/i]
How can I just let you walk away
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you (ooh..)
You're the only one who really knew me at all
How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave?
'Cause we shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
But take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against the odds
And that's what I've gotta face
I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
But take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
But to wait for you is all I can do
And that's what I've gotta face
Take a look at me now
I'll just be standing here
And you coming back to me
Is against the odds
And that's a chance I've gotta face
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| 02.12.05 (8:44 pm) [edit] |
Soo....this weekend didn't turned out exactly as planned. I was so excited to go to San Diego and LA, and it ended up not being that great. Audrey and I left around 1 on Thursday, and it rained pretty much the whole way there....we had to drive through the mountains and it was scary. And then Audrey got us lost so we drove a whole hour in the wrong direction and had to turn around. And then at the place where we were supossed to turn around there was a really bad car accident and the guy died....he was in a body bag so I assumed he died. I got really upset and almost threw up because car accidents make me think of Michael. It was really sad......so after that we finally got going the right way, and got to Audrey's mom's house around 7....so it took us 7 hours to get there when it should've taken about 5. We watched the OC with her mom....loves it....and then went and hung out with some of Audrey's friends. They were really cool......they reminded me of the boys at home (who BTW are coming in 28 days!!!!). The next day it was still gross and raining, but we went to La Jolla and drove around, then went to PB Bar, where Robin got arrested on the Real World.....I'm such a dork. We ate lunch but then got kicked out because we weren't 21....it was 3 pm!! Who gets wasted at 3 pm on a weekday?? Wait, don't answer that......haha. We went back to the house and took a nap because the food was nasty and made us sick, then we watched The Notebook with Audrey's mom.....such a sad movie!! Then we went to ZBT at SDSU and it was really fun. Their frat houses are SOOOOOO cute.....not gross like ours! But not like in Texas either, because the Texas ones are all mansiony like you see in the movies, but these ones were cute and stucco. It was fun except these guys kept trying to get me to dance with them and I just wasn't really in the mood bc I was DD and I only like to dance when I'm drunk! There was this boy that I thought looked like Jake, and I was like ummmm you're hot, lets makeout, but it turns out he actually looked nothing like Jake, only dressed like him. Oops. He was hot from far away though. Today we were supossed to drive up to OC, meet up with Ashley, then go to LA.....but that didn't work out. Apparently, something happened and Stephen checked himself out of rehab so she had to like babysit him and didn't want to leave him. Thats cool, I drive 7 hours to see you and you can't leave your boyfriend?? I guess I kind of understand, but I was really disappointed. You would think someone almost 20 years old could take care of themself but I guess not. She said we could still come up but it wouldn't be any fun....I was thinking about just going up to LA and getting a hotel, but we decided just to go home. The drive took forever.....actually only 5 hours but it seemed really long. We had to stop at this really scary gas station and I thought we were going to die. But other than that, the drive was alot better than the way there. So we're just hanging out and drinking now......I plan on getting completely trashed and passing out. PEACE.
p.s. valentines day sucks and is stupid and i'm not just saying that bc I don't have a bf.....I've always thought it is HIGHLY overrated
[b]Starting Line[/b]
[i]Left Coast Envy[/i]
ay could be a different day
if the sky lifts up the haze
off of my front lawn
or just another time i hold my tears
for another year
on my way back home
can i sell this sunrise, in return for a sunset? yeah..
can i just be here one more day, until my sunburn fades away?
I've asked a hundred times what's going on
but it went through one ear and out the other one
why can't i take a palm tree home with me?
for the memory of you when i'm at home
I've been looking forward, months back
vacation's everything we need...
can i sell this sunrise, in return for a sunset? yeah..
can i just be here one more day, until my sunburn fades away?
I'm taking pictures
of everything
to remind me of the place that's so perfect for me
and i'm taking pictures (taking pictures)
of everything (of everything)
so go ahead and take this place away from me
today could be another day
when the sky lifts up the haze
off of my front lawn
just another time i hold my tears
for another year
on my way back home
can i sell this sunrise, in return for a sunset? yeah..
can i just be here one more day, until my sunburn fades away?
can i
sell this sunrise, in return for a sunset? yeah..
can i just be here one more day, until my sunburn fades away?
can i sell this sunrise, in return for a sunset? yeah..
can i just be here one more day, until my sunburn fades away?
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| soooo stoked for CALI!!! |
| 02.09.05 (10:11 pm) [edit] |
First I have to go off on something:
WHAT THE FUCK WERE THE JUDGES ON PROJECT RUNWAY THINKING?????? Are you doing black tar heroin? OH MY GOD, EW! WENDY SUCKS BALLS!!! She shouldn't even be there......Alexandra should have made it to the final 4, and it should be Kara Saun, Jay, and Austin in the final 3. To be a fashion designer you need to be FASHIONABLE. Wendy is GROSS. She wears GROSS clothes and has GROSS hair and she is just GROSS. I know I get way too sucked into reality tv, but as somebody who is seriously considering a career in fashion I would never choose her. EW. Ok anyways.....
I am SOOOOOOO excited Audrey and I are going to Cali tomorrow!! We are going to San Diego first then to see my Lambchop!!! We are going out in LA on saturday......but If I got to LA I might never come back. When I see Ash I am seriously going to cry because I haven't seen her in forever and I miss her so much! And I found out that Jake and Pajo are for sure coming to visit for spring break.....I can't wait!! Thats less than a month away! I love them both they are the coolest boys ever! I can't wait to show them around and maybe even go to Mexico....it depends on how long they stay. AHHHHHHH I am so excited I want to jump up and down! I wish I didn't have to go to school tomorrow so we could leave tomorrow morning, but I only have class til 1 so its ok.....we should get there by 6, latest, which means we will be there in time to watch the OC!! Well I have to go do some homework since I won't be here all weekend, and I probably won't sleep because I AM SO STOKED!!!!!!!!!!! :)
[b]Wave[/b]
[i]California[/i]
On a lonely day
I look out on the freeway
I can, fantasize 'bout the car I drive
Don't leave the light on
I can find my way
It's been so long now I have to say...
I'm going to california
gonna live the life
sipping on tequila night after night
dreaming of the moment when everything looks right
a little bit of love goes a long way tonight
I'm on my way
Heading for the sun
that's where I'll stay
I'm never going back home
do you ever fell like
you need a change
hang out where no one knows your name
I'm going to california
gonna live the life
sipping on tequila night after night
dreaming of the moment when everything looks right
a little bit of love goes a long way tonight
would you like to meet me there?
We'll be dancing on the sand
These days will never win
cause the world goes on and on
On a lonely day
I look out on the freeway
I can, fantasize 'bout the car I drive
Don't leave the light on
I can find my way
It's been so long now I have to say
It's been so long now I have to say...
I'm going to california
gonna live the life
sipping on tequila night after night
dreaming of the moment when everything looks right
a little bit of love goes a long way tonight
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| i miss kylie :( |
| 02.08.05 (11:49 pm) [edit] |
I just talked to Kylie for 2 hours on the phone....I miss her so much! Whenever I talk to her it really wants to make me transfer......I wish she would come here, but it would be better if I was there because then I would be close to all my family and other friends. The thing is, it took me so long to adjust here, I don't want to do it again. I don't want to leave Audrey.....and its so pretty here. I can go to LA whenever I want, and I get to see palm trees every day.....but its not the same. If I went to UT, who would I live with?? I know people that go there, but nobody I'm that good of friends with. Plus, I probably couldn't transfer til next spring at the earliest, and that would be stupid just to transfer for senior year. But if I did, it would be easier to get into law school there......I just don't know. Boo hoo. I have not been happy here lately, hopefully this weekend in Cali will cheer me up. Tonight Audrey, Rob, and I went to Pick Up Stix.....yummm. I wanted to drink tonight, since it is Mardi Gras, but Audrey and Rob were upstairs and I just felt like the third wheel so I left. I was going to go workout, but I was still hungover from last night...ooops. I have missed a bunch of classes the past 2 weeks because of my stupid car. My photography teacher wants me to drop the class because I missed 2 classes.....SORRY MY CAR WOULDN'T FREAKING START!!! I'm pissed because I spent all this money for that class, and I've already paid for that class, so its just a waste. That makes me mad. Well I am tired, and I for sure have to go to class tomorrow, so i'm going to sleep.....
[b]Yellowcard[/b]
[i]Miles Apart[/i]
If I could I would do all of this again
Travel back in time with you to where this all began
We could hide inside ourselves and leave the world behind
And make believe there's something left to find
We'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
Now we've all grown up, gone on and moved away
Nothing I can do about it, nothing I can say
To bring us back to where we were when life was not this hard (life was not this hard)
Looking back it all just seems so far, so far away
We'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
Give it up for just one more day
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
Give it up for just one more day
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
Give it up, give it all away
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
We'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
I need you now, we're miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
I need you now, we're miles apart
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
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| 02.07.05 (5:45 pm) [edit] |
This weekend ended up being OK.....minus the whole car thing. This morning I had my car towed to a repair shop, and its only going to be around $300 to fix it, I thought it would be alot more. Saturday night Audrey and I went to a party at one of Amy's friends house with Andy and Ross, but we didn't stay for that long. Suzy, Ross, and I did some Jager shots and then we jumped on the trampoline....it was fun. I wanted to hang out with Drew because I haven't seen him that much lately, and he went over to Suzy and Amy's apartment, so we ended up going over there. We hung out for awhile, and I didn't get too drunk because I didn't want a repeat of last weekend! We went over to one of Helli's friends apartment and everyone else played drinking games.....Aud and I just kind of chilled. I finally met this boy, Sawyer, that everyone always talks about.....he is moving in with Rob and Drew next year. He is really cool and really cute! Yesterday we went over to Rob's to watch the Super Bowl and grilled burgers and hot dogs for Audrey.....Rob made some bomb ribs. I had to do French homework while I was over there so I wasn't too much fun. I didn't go to class because I was trying to get my car fixed today, but I did go tanning and worked out with Jason.... I'm sore!! I'm soooooooooooooo excited about going to Cali on Thursday!!! I get to see my LAMBCHOP! Yay! And I am stoked to meet Audrey's mom and her friends....we are going to a party at SDSU so that should be fun.....I feel like I am betraying Kylie by going to LA without her....it won't be the same! But it will still be alot of fun. Well I have to finish a lab soooo later!
[b]Spitalfield[/b]
[i]I Loved The Way She Said LA[/i]
say the things you say
and your dreaming like you do
you know sometimes circles run around you
hey now lets be honest
i really think its true
you know sometimes we all bend the rules
you've runned a life
you've been around
you love to live to hate this town
and i hope and dream just like you do
yeah weve been here twice before
you want it to mean so much more
and i hope that every thing goes through
she goes to california, oh
california is not so far
when i close my eyes and wonder where you are
and you wish upon a star
two thousand miles doesn't seem so far
you play the games you play
you win sometimes you loose
you know sometimes walls run into you
now you got me thinking
and i really think it's true
the sun shines sometimes just for you
you've runned a life
you've been around
you love to live to hate this town
and i hope and dream just like you do
yeah weve been here twice before
you want it to mean so much more
and i hope that every thing goes through
she goes to california, oh
california is not so far
when i close my eyes and wonder where you are
and you wish upon a star
two thousand miles doesn't seem so far
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| I want to scream |
| 02.05.05 (4:15 pm) [edit] |
What a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day.....and its only 6:00.
Today started out good, its gorgeous outside, I was in a great mood because Audrey and I were having a Mardi Gras party at my house....we went and bought $40 worth of beads and went and bought her a mattress. I got some really cute palm tree candles at Pier 1. Then we went to IKEA. Everything was fine until we were going to leave and my car wouldn't start (again). My car is a 2002, and I love it, it is my baby....but it has been having all these problems lately. The breaks are squeaky, the battery keeps dying, etc.....so it won't start and there are like 12 trillion people at IKEA staring at it is really embarassing. Finally the people who were parked next to us came out and tried to jump my car but it wouldn't start. At this point I am super pissed off and about to either scream or cry. We thank the people and they leave so we call Rob to come get us. I called my Dad, and he was a dick and blamed the whole thing on me (how it is my fault I don't know) and said I probably need a new starter which is like $450 and he said he won't pay for it. Which is funny because he constantly reminds me that he paid for the car so it is technically his car and he is just letting me use it. SO PAY TO FIX YOUR FUCKING CAR!!! He makes me so mad. Rob came and looked at it, and this man in a boy scout uniform looked at it and they both agreed it is probably the starter. Fabulous. So Rob brought us home, and I decided I am way too pissed off to have a party tonight and I don't want to clean.....so I bought beads for no reason??? I guess we could have the party on Tuesday which is actually Mardi Gras but I don't know. We would do it next weekend but Audrey and I are going to California on Thursday....which kind of cheers me up. Somedays I just hate it here and I want to go home. I miss everyone there. And I am going to kill the neighbors because they are playing their fucking music loud again and its shaking my fucking wall. So I think I will go and scream at them now. I need a drink or something or I am going to freak out. GRRRRRRRR
[b]Rooney[/b]
[i]You're On The Edge[/i]
You're out on the edge
But nobody sees you
Your out on the edge
But not in danger
Cause your only 2 feet above the ground
Your out on a mission, for recognition
Your out on a mission, for a show to sellout
But you've already sold out
Yes, you fucking sellouts
No one, no one cares
How close you were you the edge
No one, no one sees the dangers to yourself
yayaya
You need a break apart from the eagles
You need a break, to find a new image
Cuz your not rock stars, but you should be
Your out on a mission, for recognition
Your out on a mission, for a show to sellout
I figured you out
So convex
No one, no one cares
How close you were you the edge
No one, No one sees the dangers for yourself
Ya, o yes, o yes, they're coming on strong
Maybe by Monday the songs will move on
But, youll meltdown, youll meltdown, youll meltdown, youll meltdown, youll meltdown!!!
No one, no one cares
How close you were you the edge
No one, No one sees the changes in yourself
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| yoga is no fun |
| 02.02.05 (6:59 pm) [edit] |
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Sooo....I suck at yoga. Audrey and I were on a fitness kick today, so we went to the gym and then we did yoga....i kept falling and stuff.....those people are crazy. I joined LA Fitness, and tomorrow I'm meeting with a personal trainer for a fitness assessment....scary!! I am soooo out of shape though, I really want to start working out hardcore again. I slacked off and didn't go to class today...I don't know why, but I just couldn't get out of bed. I missed this huge assignment in Art so I am probably screwed.....tomorrow we are going over to Camelback after my lecture, so that will be fun. I want to go up to Sedona on Saturday, but I think we are going to have a Mardi Gras party....funn!! I am even going to make a Kings Cake (yummy) and we are going to have green, purple, and yellow jello shots and buy beads and stuff. I'm excited! I wish I was going to the real Mardi Gras....I am soooo jealous of Paj and Jake that they get to go!! My Soph. year I got to be a Mardi Gras Princess and be on a float....it was amazing. Its Groundhogs Day, so we were going to drink....but last Wednesday we got totally wasted and I didn't go to lecture or lab and since I missed class today I HAVE to go tomorrow. Nothing too exciting to write about.....but Project Runway is on now so I'm gonna go....later
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